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MoCuishle： my darling，my blood.

I can never stop myself to write this down. I was deeply moved when I firstly saw this film when I was a student. At that time, I nearly know nothing about how tough can a life be! I can stretch my hand to my parents, got money from them without feeling any pain and sweat. But now I graduated, everything is different from what I thought, people would never so kind, they were  cold when you made a mistake, they seems to push you to hell whenever they got the chance. And me,  have to be careful everywhere, have to thought again and again before I step every single pace. Even careful like Frankie failed to protect his little girl Maggie. Yes, I have to admit everyone has the chance to give the shoot. And Maggie should happy since she has proved her value. How would Frankie forgive himself? He was so regretful when the so-called accident occurred. Maybe Frankie should not feel any ashamed just like Eddie said, at last she got the chance.

Don’t cry, Frankie. When at the end Frankie helped Maggie leave the world unwilled, he kissed her face. We know how much Frankie love Maggie and I believe Frankie will never work out from the sorrow.

Yes, life is like what the film told us. We have to work hard even this may need us to pay much that we sometimes can’t afford, you know we only got one shot. Meanwhile, the film tried to tell us, there are much rules in the way of our life, we need to follow them, some our predecessor has dug for us, some we need to find out by ourself. Just like Frankie told Maggie ” In the count, the most thing is protecting yourself.” Maggie tried as he told. And that works in many ways, but failed at last.

We need to know ‘Tough ain’t enough!’

Bad day, gloomy whether.

My girl cried, I know she was so hurt, I can feel the pain.

She told I was a selfish man, never minded her feeling.

Days before there was a chance of promotion in her department. And as what we usually see in TV, there was only one position but got two candidates, her colleague and her. Yes, she at last failed, her colleague take the chance. And I, whose arm should have been around her, told her she should be strong, it’s OK that her colleague take the position, she should work harder, try to improve herself. There were even no one word was warn enough to make her feel better temporarily. And now, I failed in my promotion, I asked too much this time, hug,  consolation and what’s more, I try to do nothing when the house is in a mess.

I even begin to hate myself.

Sorry, my girl. You know I didn’t mean that.

Despite I am not success this time, I will never give up.  Poor oral english make me feel I am a loser, but let’s see, I will prove I can do this well.

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